Patti's space

My lucky Buddy

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:45:18 GMT

When i'f feeling down and lonly i can go see him,

I open up his stall and he lets me walk right in,

I brush him gentaly and talk like were best friends,

He never stops and judges me he just listens,

He lets me hug his neck and don't make a big fuss,

Never once has he got made and started to cuss ,

He might try and bite me every now and again,

But that don't mean nuthing he's just being a bratty friend,

I love the way he hollers and makes a big fuss when i come into the barn ,

I know he's just wanting his corn ,

Even tho he isn't top of the line,

I am so dang proud he is mine,

He's my lucky buddy and he's here to stay,

For i would really miss him if he were to go away ,

Patti 4/3/07

What ever comes my way

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:30:41 GMT

I Don't know what God has planed for me,

I guess i will have to wait and see,

It's all in his gracouse hands now it's not upto me ,

When things come crashing at me i just try and blink ,

Giving me a little time to take a deep breath and think,

I can't change the people around me but i can decide where i stand,

I can walk the line a little straighter and be a better woman ,

When my kids look at me and smile oh so sweet,

I rember those same smiles a little smaller looking just the same

when i was ticking there tiny feet,

I can handle what life throws at me as long as i know there safe and sound,

There my babys and i need them here so i can laugh and play,

I will always keep them safe no matter what it takes,

God blessed me with carring for them ,

Thats a job i take to heart,

For him to trust me with them means he knows i will do my part,

So as life comes down the road and rests at my door,

I will do my part and them kids i will adore,

I will love and keep them safe and die before i do them harm,

Patti 4/2/07

Rember

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 15:51:00 GMT

I walk by your side,

Even when your attitude chapped my hide,

You know i will help if need be,

All ya haveta do is call me,

I will never let you down,

When you need me i will always be around,

Even when your scared to call,

For you i would climb any wall,

Just pickup the line ,

I will be there in record time,

To hold you when you need me to,

To try and keep you from feeling blue,,

All i want is for you to be happy and healthy,

For that i would give my last breath of air,

I would give my life for yours and not even care,

Your my children and i will always put you first,

For you are my angels and thats what you deserve,,,,

Patti

What they do,

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 15:44:56 GMT

I love to watch them run and play,

I could watch them kids all day,

The way the laugh and carryon,

Makes me so greatful i'm there mom,

When they give me a hug just because,

Makes my heart beat stronger ,

I do what i can to make there life great,

Each day they have a home and food on there plate,

There would be such an emptyness in my life if they were not here,

My little brats that fill my heart with love ,

That i find so dear,

Patti

i'm movin on too

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 12:57:39 GMT

Im not going to sit back anymore,

Why the hell should i have my life on hold ,

Your the one who left and called me the whore,

Well if that is the case then fine and dandy,

I will start letting other men hold me,

You moved on why shouldn't I,

Why the hell should i sit around and cry,

I am better then being alone,

Now it's time for me to go on,

You have her and i will find him,

Then maybe things will feel right again,

Maybe when i have someone to hold me again i can go on,

Maybe if i have someone to help me fill this void,

Life can be better,

We just had to may things in the way,

But what you called me was wrong in so many ways,

It don't matter you got what you wanted,

I am no longer a problem,

So now i will find someone to help me move on,

Then maybe there will be nuthing left to dwell on ,

Patti

Packing them away

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 12:44:20 GMT

I packed all the things in a box,

Thinking back on how they were givin,

Weather just mailed or tied with a ribbon,

There isn't much to be packed,

Just the things i think he should have back,

Little memorys that mean so much,

They will probaly get tossed in the trash or givin to the new love,

Why should i care anyhow,

I'm not the one who matters now,

I give till i hurt trying to find a way to make it work,

When i was always put in the middle and hurt,

They'er the ones who had the problem you see,

But it always fell right on me,

No matter how hard i tried,

Neither would givin to there pride,

So what was i saposto do,

Well now it don't matter at all,

I pack the rings and all the little sentamental things,

Maybe if there not around,

I won't feel so much like i been let down,

I was the one who was expected to make things right,

Always being put in the middle of there stupid fight,

Well now i guess all is said and done,

I am going to just take my life day by day,

Waiting for this hurt to go away,

day by day

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 12:31:30 GMT

I go threw life day by day,

I try and be happy despite what i really feel,

Knowing in time maybe it will heal,

I can't bring myself to eat,

I try and keep going till i am dead on my feet,

At least then i can have dreamless sleep,

I can't go bad and change how things turned out,

There is no way i can let myself sit around and pout,

All i can do is pray i did what was right,

I don't know if i am still hurt from what was said,

Or from the memerys running threw my head,

I don't know when this will get easyer,

Some days are such a blure,

I oneday i will wake up and this sick empty feeling will be gone,

I guess till thehn i will just go on feeling like i been done wrong,

The hurt might not ever go away,

Thats becouse he said those things that day,

Just to make me go away,

He tore at me bit by bit,

Just cause he wanted a new,

And i was in the way ,

So my life will go on day by day,

I will get threw some way,

I can keep going as long as i am strong,

And i can keep acting like nuthing is wrong,

Patti,

you thought you were smart

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 13:52:10 GMT

YOu thought you were smart ,

Trying to tearout my heart,

I hope you are happy now,

You can find what you really want ,

I am threw defending you,

Your true feelings showed through,

I have delt with knowing you were unhappy for years,

So many times it brought me to tears,

My crying days are over,

I wont ever let someone hurt me like that again,

Eather i am loved enough to be shown affection at least a little,

Or it's just not worth my time,

I am threw begging for what i need ,

You should have givin it to me with passion ,

But instead it was always all about you,

As long as you were happy that was enough,

Mean while i was dieing inside,

I begged and begged but i guess it didn't matter,

I took you back once you said you would change,

Then you never know it but i could see you hated to be that way,

I saw the hate for me in your eyes,

And a little more of me started to die,

You say I love you so much,

But there were selected times of touch,

When you knew you would get some,

Was when you would show a tiny affection,

Years of begging never panned out,

What makes you think i am going to belive they ever will??

I am threw feeling like i am not enough,

I am getting older and need more then your willing to give,

therefor I will grant you your wish,

I will not contact you again,

You just rember all that i did,

You rember the years and how easly it would have been to make our life good,

Then go ahead and tell whoever i am a whore,

Just rember i'm a woman who deserved more !!!!!!!!

Patti 3/12/07

What a woman needs,

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 13:33:47 GMT

A woman needs to know she is needed,

TO know when her man see's her he still feels heated,

A woman wants to know she is enough,

To know that no matter what she is beautiful to you,

That no matter what you will help her threw,

She wants a man who is strong and true,

Not one who is cold and seldom lets his tenderside show threw,

She needs more then a roll in the sack,

She needs a man who always has her back,

None of that accousing her of this and that,

We don't want a man who looks for something other then us ,

Then gets upset when we make a big fuss,

Either we are enough or we arn't,

It's up to you men to let us know whats on your mind,

Becouse there isn't anyway were going to be happy eachday when your off looking at trashy women ,

Then expectin us to want to play,

Get real and make sure of what you want,

Becouse some times she just might not stick around,

Then your going to need some help pickin you up off the ground,

Women don't ask for much,

At least this one doesn't,

Or maybe true ,honest, affectinat,passionet, whole hearted love is to much?

You men take a good long look ,

The women you have just might be to good!!

Think about everythign they have done for you,

Then You will see what devotion is,

Patti 3/12/07

Dads poem

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 13:17:04 GMT

I close my eyes and think back over the years,

As my eyes fill with heavy tears,

There are so many regrets,

So many fears,

I never thought this day would come,

You were always so strong,

I know now your at peace,

Your hurting is gone,

It’s the small things that weren’t said in the end,

That have some of us wishing we had the chance to say them again,

I know you know how all of us feel,

That’s why you went the way you did,

So we felt no guilt,

You didn’t have to be stuck in a bed,

With cords attached to you and machines,

The last few days you spent here were good,

You got to have your French Toast , Steak and one last Bud,

Who knows maybe they have better Beer up there ,

I know some people who are praying for that ,

Dad you took us all by surprise,

You left us to soon and with a lot of pain in our hearts,

But I know we all Understand,

You were always so strong and had the upper hand,

I was never ashamed of you or mom,

You raised me right and taught me write from wrong,

I know the pain will slowly fade,

But right now it’s still fresh and cuts deep like a sharp blade,

Were going to tell some stories about you,

Like how badly you picked on me when we were in Colorado and I lost my one shoe,

And the time the Mouse ran up your pant leg,

So you do some fishing and have some fun,

But you had best take the time to come back and check in on mom,

The grandchildren will miss you too so we will fill them in on a few good stories too ,

Ok Dad the party must go on so if you’re here I hope you like what we’ve done It’s all for you dad From us

Kids and mom, We love you and miss you more then you will ever know,

P.R. 3/3/06

helping her threw

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 13:08:40 GMT

I have no idea what life will throw at me tomarrow,

But right now i am fighting threw the sarrow,

I know i can make it threw each day,

As long as i keep my headup and stay strong no matter what it takes,

I think back on whats gone on this last year,

Wondering how i got where i am ,

The last year has been a total fog,

At times i felt like i was stuck in the bog,

Like my life had no meaning at all,

I felt i had hit the ground from a 10000 foot freefall,

I try and hold her together,

Knowing her loss was so much greater,

Somedays i know all she wants to do is cry,

I try and joke and help her keepit together,

All the while feeling so helpless,

The least i can do for her is make it a little better,

After so many years of her doing that for me,

It's the least i can do for her you see,

NO matter what people think,

No matter what goes on,

I need to help her threw this,

Cause she is my mom,

Patti 3/12/07

3/12/07

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 12:53:02 GMT

I can think of a houndred things to say ,

But what would it matter anyway,

When my words just come out of my mouth and float away,

You never hear them day after day,

A partnership wasn't ment to be that way,

Patti 3/12/07

Walk away

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 12:44:54 GMT

When you tell someone never to talk to you again,

You better be ready for what lies ahead,

You can only accouse a woman so many times before she decides enough is enough,

When you treat her like she is the last thing on your mind,

She will walk away time after time,

You might think it is all her wrong doing,

Not thinking it has anything to do with all your azz chewing,

When you let her go day by day never feeling special in any way,

Thats when she gets broken hearted and sad enough just to go ,

SO when you think your woman is going to walk away ,

Instead of being a jerk ,

Change your stupid ways,

And maybe you and your woman will together grow old and grey !!!!

Patti R . 3/12/07

This Cowgirl !!!

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:11:34 GMT

This cowgirl was raised to be true,

This cowgirl wants a man who will never make her feel Blue,

This cowgirl loves the smell of a horses hide,

This cowgirl enjoys a long trailride

This cowgirl Ain't always nice,

This cowgirl don't always think twice,

This cowgirl loves a cool summer night,

This cowgirl wants her jeans to fit just right,

This cowgirl loves to ride in her cowboys pickup truck

This cowgirl isn't affraid of a barn fulla muck

This cowgirl wants to be trusted

This cowgirl don't cry when her heart gets busted,

This cowgirl loves to wrestle and playfight,

This cowgirl some times stays out all night,

This cowgirl loves to hug and snuggle,

This cowgirl likes a drink with some bubbles

This cowgirl loves to be held close when she dances

This cowgirl longs for some romancin

This cowgirl is one of a kind,

This cowgirl loves to blow people's minds ..

Patti

My Love

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:07:23 GMT

My love is honest and true

My love will never fall threw

My love has no conditions

My love is full of ambitions

My love you have nuthing to fear

My love will find you in any way

My love is being kept quiet

My love for you this soon could insite a righet

My love is as deap as the ocean

My love is full of devotion

My love for you is all i need

My love has no greed

My love calls out to you

My love please tell me your love will always be true

My love i need you so

My love please tell me you will never go

Patti

She watches him ( for all the woman who support there cowboy)

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:06:38 GMT

She sits in the stands ,
Wringing her purse strap in her hands,
They call his name his ride is up next,
She looks around in total distress,
A woman has a way of knowing,
She can always tell when something bad is comming,
he comes out of the chute hand held high,
She sucks in a breath trying not to cry,
In a second her fears come to life,
he is hung up ,
Dangling from that big old bulls side,
She screams his name and starts to cry,
The clowns rush in ,
There ther to save lives,
She prays while they do there job,
When he falls to the ground ,
She starts to sob,
Running from her seat to his side,
He is not moving blood comming from by his eye,
She knows he got kicked and stepped on ,
She prays to god that he is not gone,
In the hospital she sits by his side holding his hand ,
Everyone can see how much she loves her man,
The docs says it's touch and go,
if he will ever wake up they don't know,
She cusses his love for the rodeo,
but deep down thats part of what she loves about him and all he knows,
She talks to him with loving words,
Hopeing to bring him back to her ,
Night after night ,
Day after day,
She sits by his side and she prays and she prays,
She asks god to take her if he does not make it ,
Telling him without his love life would not be worth living,
A firmilur voice whispers her name ,
She looks over at where he is laying,
He tries to smile this his face all swollen,
She yells for the doc ,
Her cowboy tries to act all tuff saying he is fine ,
She thinks he is a nut ,
He tells her he heard all she had said,
That now he knows how much she needs him,
She tells him they both have needs,
That she will always be there weather it is when he gets the buckel ,
Or he is laying in bed fighting for his life tooth and nail,
They go home and hold each other ,
9 months later he has made her a mother,
Love is a wonderful thing,
it can make you cry,
It can make you sing,
But above all love is a must,
For in order to love you know there is trust ,,

Patti 3/12/04

His Sacrafice

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:02:29 GMT

When he gave his son up for our salvation,
It was out of true love and total devotion,
He made a sacrafice that none else would,
We take so much for grantit and noone should,
We walk throw life and don't look back,
Where would we be today if our lord thought like that,
We need to be more aware of life,
Rember the man who was sacraficed,
He went threw more pain then anyone of us could ever bare,
While some stood by and only stared,
How could people be so cruel and heartless,
To put another human threw all that distress,
They hung him for that cross beatin and bloody,
His mother crying throwing herself on the ground getting all muddy,
How many of us could give up our child,
To make the world a better place at least for a while,
A lot of us don't seem to care about rite or wrong,
There just going threw life with blinders on,
We need to wake up and see the light,
Do what we can to make the world right,
Help a person in need,
Try your best to do a good deed,
Rid the world of it's evil seed,
Let god back in your hearts,
Give him a chance to heal , thats where it all starts,

Patti 4/14/04

I'm Country

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 14:58:55 GMT

Just cause i am not in my hat and boot,
Don't even think i have forgottin my root,
Out ridin my horse is where i would rather be,
If you take a good look at me that you will see,
I love country music,
I can really get into it,
Bobbin my head to the beat,
I am 100% country from my head to my feet,
On Saturday night,
I put on my boots and hat that fits just right,
My nice button down shirt,
My tight wranglers that make me look like a little squirt,
I am lookin good ready to go out and flirt,
I never get attached don't wanna get hurt,
Every day no matter what i do or say,
You can bet i am a country in everyway,
Altho it maybe hard to see when i am in my dress suit and heals,
It's a way of life and how i feel,
I am all country and always will be ,
Cause thats what God intended for me,

patti 4/5/04

US

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 14:56:46 GMT

When you hold me tight ,
all threw the night,
baby that feels so right,
I can't belive we finaly did it,
we made it threw like we wanted ,
our love is one that won't give out,
baby your who i want for life without a dought,
i need you in my life ,
you make everything alright,
when you see i am troubled,
you take my hand in yours hold me tight and my strength is doubled ,
I love the way you call my name ,
so i will come out and dance with you in the rain,
Baby you complet me,
You help me be the best i can be,
threw your eye i see ,
how much love can mean,
I want you for ever,
were perfect when were together,
tell me you will leave me never,
i need you more then you could ever know,
my heart would break if you were to go,
without you i don't think i could breath,
you are what complets me,
i need you in my life,
without you it just ain't right,
i couldn't get threw one night,
not being in your arms held so tight,
baby please don't go ,
i had to let you know,
i want you forever,
for me there will never be another,
your it in my book,
after just one look,
you had me on the hook,
now tell me to come home,
so niether of us will ever have to be alone,

patti 3/31/04

The Beach

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 14:54:34 GMT

I walk along the beach
The sand hot on my feet,
Waves crashing on the shore,
Thinking about the man i adore,
A sea shell lays washed up on shore,
So pretty and white,
It shines in the sun light,
Noone around for miles but me,
I think of how things could have come to be,
My loss weighs heavy on my mind,
Thoughts of you seam to break threw all the time,
Your smile and eye so deep,
My heart was yours to keep,
Walking along i hum a song,
One that hids how things went so wrong,
I let you get closer to me then anyone ever has,
I know this pain will never pass,
Some times true love does not work out,
I learned that all to well without a dought,
The sun sets on the water in the sea,
I close my eyes and wish you were with me,
When i open my eyes a tear rolls down my cheek,
I fell so far when i was knocked off my happy peek,
How can any good come of this loss,
I am going to have to ask the big Boss,
They say he has a plan for us all,
Well i need to know why i always fall,
Tears flow more freely down my face,
Facing the facts i see i lost my saving grace,
That there will never be another who can take his place,

Patti 6/19/04